Quick question. Does anyone have a health journal? A journal to keep track of their health situation?

I do keep a journal. A book that is--or a diary to some people--and obviously this blog. I write about..well..everything I could think of. But of course, not much about my health. Mental health maybe ;)

Anyway, I might start to have one tonight. Well, not a new blog or old-fashioned diary..just a new post. Baby step.

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I've been pretty much in hibernation mode these past month. Like a bear during winter. Thanks to the crazy cough from my impromptu Bali getaway few weeks ago. Apparently, Bali during rainy season was tough for this spoily girl. Aha.

So yea, I took my rest. A lot. I got myself those on-the-counter cough syrups. No luck. So I went to my doctor. Got myself antibiotics and an X-ray. Finished the meds and still no luck.The X-ray result suggested I still have some problems from my previous flare up last year. More antibiotics. Stronger ones. Choked up at the cashier. Geez.

Oh, and my doc sent me to another 6-session of inhalation treatment. That means 6-round trip to the hospital for 6 consecutive days. Okay, I had undergone this treatment for too many times last year. No wonder the nurse in the hospital suggested me to keep my own mask and tube for the treatment. I thought that was overrated and a bit hilarious. But I bought it anyway. Now I have my own mask+tube at home. Wow.

Finished the antibiotics and inhalation, but luck is still nowhere to be found. Am officially with no medicine now. Next step is doing a CAT scan. That's new. Okay, now am worry.

A year ago, after the flare up that infected my lungs, I had to take certain pills for almost 9 full months until last August. Nasty pills. I hate them. They were huge, ugly and made me nauseous every time. Fingers crossed, I don't have to go back to that dark time of my life..swallowing those nasty pills. So help me God.

Anyway, don't get me wrong. I do hibernate and miserable a bit..but I also do few other things. Well, I still managed to go out and hangout with friends on those rarely good day. The ones with slightly manageable cough and friendly weather with a good portion of sunshine. And yes, I still work a bit..through emails and phone. I write few stuff and read novel to entertain myself.

Okay, not much of a physical activity, I know. It's those bad days when I feel like a train-wreck. Or like just being hit by a train. Major body sores. Joint pain. Black and blue. Literally. I don't feel like doing much than just resting and control the whole universe from bed. But yea, after a good week or two, it dawned on me that doing pretty much nothing won't keep me away from the train-wreck feeling on my body.

So I decided to start exercise. Again. Well, nothing fancy like hitting the gym. Just a 30mins of light workout at home. A bit stretching here and there and some moves I remembered from workout routine at school time. Ancient, I know. First 3 days was awful. I just added more sores and pain to my body. But that was predictable right?

I keep my schedule on. And now, I think I feel better. Some sores are gone. Finally something is working. Well, it doesn't affect the cough still..but that's okay. And thank God, the weather has been pretty nice the last 3 days. I do love rain. I have a soundtrack for rainy season. But this year, the rainy season has been cruel to me. And yes, this lungs needs the sun terribly.

Every time the sun comes up in the morning, I went straight to the porch. Stretching under the sun. Or simply wandering around. And now am obsessed to keep my room look clean and sharp. I clean a lot. A lot. Just to keep myself active and sweating. Ha. Oh, I also start meditating. Okay, I don't dream to master in it and find God or the universe like in all those soul-searching stories. I just need to feel calm and relax.

Yea. Calm. I need to feel it in every cell in my body.
In breathing. thinking. living. being.

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